justina's just blogged . all her anger and everything . she has had a fucked up day too . but mine is like . cannot reverse . and thanks sherry . and thanks blab . thanks for listening and helping . thanks justina . thanks pingg . thanks che . urgh . i don't understand why everything has to happen on one day . why not numerous days . so sucks lah . i just wish i can turn back time . and do whatever . argh heck . what am i talking about ? i'm just so fucked up . and come back blab . you really make me feel happy . just listening to your opinions . okay . i don't know what's coming over me . i hate myself . to the core . i mean like . what have my parents ever done for me ? beside drive me up the wall . i hate them so much . yah . stupid parents . you get divorced when i was only three . then left me with my mum . then my mum went away to shanghai when i was 9 and then you threw me to my dad . my bias dad . who only loved my sister . whatever she asked for , my dad will buy for her . because i was like . a good girl ? my sister would show attitude and everything . but no , my dad doesn't care . because my dad knew that i loved him , so he wanted my sister to love him too . so everyday he would come home only at like . what 11 ? and the latest time he ever came back was at 5.45 am . can you belive that . i mean , he didn't even come home sometimes . and on weekends , he would only play golf . hello ? what am i ? invisible or what ? that's how i spent two years of my life . ignored and unwanted . whenever my mum came back to sg to visit us , she'll only scold me . why ? because i never do this never do that . come home 1 min late . bloody ass . then my sis would just rub it in . i lost it lor . run away from home . what else to do . i hate my family . then they brought me home . ran away again . caught again . argh . so my mum flew back to singapore . and that time she was acting really nice . like ohh . i love you so much darling . and my dad was also like . i love you so much too dear . uh . then now ? my mum blames me for everything . like when something goes wrong she'll be like . all because of you lah . see what you do ? make me come back to sg . all your fault ! can i just go and die ? she blames me for having interest in so many things . like . i want to learn guitar . she was like . you siao ah . last time i used to have like . piano lessons . and my dad signed me up for it . then my mum just took me out . i was like . didn't know that time because my dad just explained that he didn't have money for me to learn . and then my parents got into a quarrel . dad blame mum for not letting me learn something . i blame my mum too . i mean like . now i'm not good at particulary anything . because when i was young you didn't let me learn anything . all the stuff my dad signed me up for , you just dropped me out . why ? because my dad signed me up . bloody hell . then now when i wanna sign up for classes you scold me . because why ? you say i keep changing interests . when actually i want to learn everything that i could have mastered by now . and it's all her fault . why do parents just lovee to blame me ? wth lah .







leave me alone . i hate everyone . i got nothing now . so just let me be .
xoxo 12:15 AM