Tessa wants to cry.


I miss you I miss you I miss you.
The time I have with you is not enough.
It'll never be enough.
I wanna see you again.
I wanna hear you laugh, see you smile.
Please?


Omfg I just read finish The Pact by Jodi Picoult.
It's so touching lehz!
Hahhaha I'm still crying.
:(

Training today waz killer can -.-
Coach was super peeved and Shermin and I were killing each other :(
:(

Triangle was horrible -.-
Kept redoing cause Shermin overthrow! :(
Lol.
But I made her cry.
I'm so sorry, babe :(

Did ankle jump we were quite fast.
I think I threw well :D
Coach made Shermin redo wth.
And cause of my awsome throwing skills Shermin still did finish quite fast.
But Coach 不开心 make Shermin redo again wtf.

Mid court was bad.
Kim and Fang Fang had to run three rounds punishment during.
Callista and Wendi fell and Callista bled :(
My shots were off and Aly jabbed my temple with her elbow :(

As if that wasn't bad enough,
We had suicide run after that :(
Totally died.

Then Coach made us stand for 20 minutes scolding us -.-
Seriously died :(

Omg.
I think my life sucks.
Netball and school and netball and netball.

Maybe that's why no one ever comes to my blog anymore hahha.

.........

No one ever tells you,
But waiting sucks.
Waiting for someone sucks even more.

You keep thinking,
About what they're doing.
Are they ok.
Are they missing you as much as you miss them.

You keep wondering,
Are they happy?
Is who they're with treating them as they're supposed to be?
Do they want to be there?

You keep telling yourself,
They're happy so stop worrying,
But you can't.

You keep telling yourself,
They don't need you,
And so it hurts and you cry.

You keep telling yourself,
Their lives do not revolve around you,
That's why they shouldn't be spending time with you.

You keep telling yourself,
The wait's going to be over, you can see them again,
But it doesn't get over, you still have to wait.

For what?
I don't know either.
What am I waiting for?
xoxo 9:22 PM