I miss the days when I was a kid.
I'd live every day worry-free and all I ever did was eat, sleep, shit.
But now it's like I can't go a minute w/o thinking of a problem be it a small one or a this-is-the-end-of-the-world one.

What happened to innocence?

I just it just gets taken from you,
Bit by bit as you grow up.

I don't know if I enjoy growing up or not.
I embrace the fact that w growing up comes more privilidges but on the other hand also encompasses responsibilities, risk and fear.

Hahaha what am I talking about.

I just guess the recent ups and downs have made me grow to be a better person (I hope)

Ok.
Weird post bye bye.
xoxo 12:19 AM



Family

I've been reflecting quite a bit after I got my results.
I guess I should have studied,
But I do not regret not doing so.

I was unmotivated and adament and now I'm just reaping what I've sowed.

I am definately going to try to work harder next year.
I'll start with actually studying.
Lol.

Anw,
I'm glad I scrapped through.

I've decided to go to a combined science class.
Because I know I can't survive with pure science and A Math.

But I'll work hard.
I will try.
I will push on.
I hope.

Anw!
I've got a new found love: Archery
LOL.

It was damn fun I swear.

Ok I think school is super boring this week.
Go school sleep,
Come home sleep,
At night sleep.

Full time pig.
xoxo 11:07 PM

Sianz, don't feel like going home cuz I know I'm going to die until cannot die already.

Got back some exam results.
Quite expected I guess cuz I didn't study.
Got F9 for chinese lolz
34.5/140 can it get any worse lol.
But I maintained A for English.
-wipes sweat-

When I saw the marksheet it was printed that I got 64 I almost fainted
Then Mrs Vincent said they printed wrong lollllz.

Ok I am bored
And having sore throat cough flu runny nose.
Urgh.
xoxo 1:27 PM

死啦！



EOYs are finally over but somehow I don't have that sense of joy or relish in that fact.
Maybe it's because I know that I didn't study so I'd probably fail everything lol.

Anw, this week has been hell.
I think waiting for results is even more vexing than taking exams -.-"
All I've been telling myself is,
"I can't wait to go back to school on Friday"
Lol.

Watching My Sister's Keeper w Brittany tomorrow!
Yes I've saved up for a movie lol.
Feli's not joining us though ;(

Gonna lunch than go for movie at cine Orchard.

And I need to go have breakfast at Bugis at 9 which means I need to wake up at 7 tomorrow.
And it's 230am now lol gg.

I think my life is super boring,
I've got absolutely nothing to blog hurray.


我想对您说对不起。
是不是我做错了？
还是因为您不喜欢我了？
我真的很想念以前，
你敢对我说＂我想你＂
xoxo 2:21 AM

卸下美丽的外壳
透明的我们还剩下什么?
爱情就像水晶球
坚固而脆弱

一个人也许自由
二个人的感动大过天空
喜怒哀乐共同拥有
不让遗憾留

我还相信爱可以走过乱流
紧紧握住双手 一秒就够
不孤单寂寞

我还相信爱要有梦才会快乐
就算未来的路不同
你在我心中到永久

感觉寒冷时候
我抱你在我胸口
当你流泪的时候
我在这里不走
爱散发的温柔
在此刻用心感受
我想和你一起
让幸福转动






Had Lit paper today.
Was super sian-I-want-to-sleep-my-hand-pain.
I ended up sleeping 40 minutes before the paper ended lol wtf,
I bet I'm going to fail lor.

Anw, Math tomorrow,
Going to fail too.
Going for once in my life, study for math.
Intense tuition :D

Not like I'm gonna do anything but let's make it look like I've tried.

After Math is History,
Then next week Science and exams are overrrrr :D

I can't wait can't wait for 20th Oct.

My Sister's Keeper debuts on 22nd Oct.
Told Britt I'd be going w her and Feli,
But no money to watch movie leh.
They go in watch I wait outside LOL.

Anw I'm super hungry now I think I'm going to faint :(


Before I go:



Meet my Kim baby.
She's newb, noob and noobz :D

Thanks baby for sending me home so many days this week!
I v scared of your daddy he look so xiong and nv talk one.
Lol.

Anw good luck for Math you can do it :D

I alr mentally prepare myself to fail Math so yup.
Good game.
xoxo 12:56 PM




Chinese paper today was killer.
Totally did not understand all of the passages lah.
Wtf they talking, everything no link!

Confirm fail lah,
I'm alr confirmed minus 19 marks because I left blank hahahha.
Right.

I'm trying to chiong Art now but I'm kinda failing. :(
Done w like, 4 pages.
6 to go whoooo -.-

I know what I wanna draw,
But I hate to do observational sketches + developement!
Since when is Art so mafan.

If I wanna draw something natural instinct is just draw,
Not do a mindmap right -.-"

Omg.
I'm so so happy I did not go for Art selection test (Not like I intented to, but yup.)

Anw, geog tomorrow, good game.
I sure no time.
:'(

I feel super I-don't-want-to-do-Art-but-I-have-to-so-bo-bian.

Exams please be over sooooon :(


你有坚持的事情
我也有我的个性
这次不让你

最恨别人对我不相信
我想往的情密是一起做決定
干涩太多是囚禁
沟通太太少是梳理
爱有千百万中定义

三天不练罗
和解要被动
不谈对错
假装没了战过

三天泪狂流
残局你来收
虽然心疼
不能摊手低头
心思拉扯中
xoxo 4:27 PM




没别的
只想说对不起
对不起我真的爱你

不管你会真么想
你真么做
也不会改变我的决定

你知道有时候
感情是很难说
很难说爱人或朋友

想给你听我的心跳
想你知道我睡得不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
关眼壁眼开出现的全是你

我才不到你的表情
我等不到你的会议
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你

对不起对不起
我爱你








Had English paper today.
I think I go take exam to sleep only lah.
Had paper 1 first.
Slept for like half an hour.
Then break,
Paper 2.

1045-1225 and I prolly slept at 1125.
Everyone was asking why I slept so early.
Idk also,
Just that finished the paper and didn't bother to check so I went to sleep.
LOL.

But I thought that the compre was pretty hard for the first passage was it not?
Passage B was still ok I guess,
And the summary was ok but I think I missed out a lot of points.

Anw, monday is chinese.
GG.

I can't even find my e dictionary lah lol.
My sis can't either.

Tues is Geog and Art.
Die die die.

I am not done w my prep studies for Art!
I hate Art super mafan.

I would rather take 10 SOVA tests than do 1 prep study for Art.





你听一听我的心跳
你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你　
搭车想着你　
关眼壁眼开出现的全是你

我猜不了你的表情　
我等不到你的回忆

不想难为你　
又不想放弃你　
決定告诉你
对不起对不起　
我愛你
xoxo 12:09 AM

Today was the last day of lessons.
Kinda mixed feelings.

Happy that the year is ending,
Yet unhappy because we'll never be a class again,
Esp next year when we're streamed into different classes.

Today the class was quite dead though,
And Mr Ng had the last period.
He said some touching things and people cried wtflolz.

But I wasn't listening I was copying English notes :0

I forgot that English paper is tomorrow.
Hahahahhahha.
Shitz.

I think I'll really miss my class :'(
Though you all are motherfucking irritating,
Never know when to shut up,
But I think we work well together (well sort of)

All the stupid crazy things,
Pranking teachers,
Thanking teachers,
Playing w teachers,
We had lots and lots of fun.

I'll never forget y'all :')

"We'll still be friends, ok? Even though next year we're all going to different classes, even though I'd probably delete your contact, not talk to you, bitch about you, hate you but remember - we'll still be friends." - Lesley

Btw,
I have not cleared my locker whooo.



Bec Che Me Lez



Bec Che Dionne Me



Che (L) Me



Me (L) Che



Me Che



Bec Che Me



Che Kim Dionne Bec Lez and Ghost

Lolz, today Shi Ying was wearing the mask and standing at the side of the class door.
Super funny watching everyone scream when they walk past/walk into class



Shi Ying!



Me and Kim

Her hair nice right.
Super irritating,
Everyday come ask me tie! >:(

Next time don't want tie alr,
My hand go on strike.



Kim's



Mine

Kim's de more brown lor.



Tying Che's hair.
Unglam.



Plucking Che's white hair



Ok I'm going to try to study.
:'(


我要做那比较爱你的人
可是我知道这不可能的
xoxo 9:07 PM



Me and Yilu



Watching Sg Idol now,
And they're like singing different language songs wth?

Anw,
I don't know why but I'm super tired today :(

Drama exam today was ....................
Boomz

I'd really like to thank my amazing group members.
For all the effort put in.
Thank you Brittany, Sakina, Felicia, Narelle.
Thank you Gracine for lights.
Thank you Kimmie for music.

xoxoxo you all :D

I have a sudden urge to eat Macdonalds.

Ok today is a boring day byebye.

如果有一天我回到以前
回到最原始的我
你会不会觉得我不错？

当你说夜深你睡不早
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
我想说我好喜欢你
你知不知道？
xoxo 8:10 PM



Sian, Drama exam tomorrow.
Lessons today was super boring.
Was falling asleep during Math.
I really cannot take it.

During Lit I was like.
"Sleep sleep sleep sleep"
Then bth so I asked Mr Ragu if I could eat mooncakes and he said ok.
Hahaha he rocks to the max.

Chatting to Kim baby on msn.

K: hey baby.
T: Hey bitch.
K: wth :( not studying ah you
T: Nope I just home
K: hahahaa okay i go read dictionary brb
T: LOL?
K: CANNOT MEH WHATS YOUR PROBLEM LA HAHA brb la!


Lol wtf read dictionary?!


K: tomorrow tie my hair k muack!
T: Hmmmmm See my mood!
K: tomorrow tie my hair k
T: See my mood!
K: tomorrow tie my hair ok
T: See my mood!
K: tomorrow tie my hair okay:D
T: See my mood!
K: tomorrow tie my hair okay (L) :D
T: See my mood!
K: tomorrow tie my hair okay :) :D (L)
T: See my mood!
K: tomrrow tie my hair k :):D:-O(L)
T: See my mood!
K:tomorrow tie my hair k :):D:-O:P;) (L)
T: See my mood!
K: TOMORROW TIE MY HAIR K :@ tomorrow tie my hair k 8o|
T: SEE MY MOOD! SEE MY MOOOOOOOD!
K: AIYA I GO READ DICTIONARY LA
T:See my mood!!!!!!!
K: i read la not you HAHAHHAHAA

Anw.



Today's rehearsal was kinda crap.
A bit scared for tomorrow.

And.
I'm not studying in school tomorrow.
I have unofficially became the class stylist/tattoist.
Everyday people come my table and go:
"TESSA TIE MY HAIR!
TESSA DRAW FOR ME!
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE"

-.-"



To my darlings.
Tell you the truth,
I don't know how to french plait.
That day I did Gracine's was I anyhow tikam then in the end look nice!
Lol.

Ok, mfking pissed off w my maid.
>:(

Anw, super tired.
Going to shower and zzzz.


p/s: If you didn't notice, I cut my hair.
p/s/s: If you didn't notice either, I look like a guy.
p/s/s/s: I didn't choose this cut :(
p/s/s/s/s: Shut upppppp! >:(
xoxo 8:55 PM



我真的很累。
每天我都会问我自己，我到底要什么，到底要做什么？
我不知道。



我爱你，你是我的羅密歐
我愿意变成你的祝英台
心腹的每一天，浪漫的每一夜
把爱不放开。
xoxo 11:25 PM