I'm gonna kill myself.


Exams are coming.
Stressed like fuck because I havn't revised finish yet.
And English paper is in like 5 days.

I don't want to study anymore.
I don't want to do anything anymore.


Why do you keep doing this to me?

You keep coming,
Blow after blow.
I've barely stood up and now you knock me down again.

I'm drained emotionally and physically.
You can't ask me to carry on with life.
I can't do it.
I have no strength left.

You can't ask me to forget you.
Cause you are me.

Does all the time we spent together mean nothing,
Again?

I guess it really does.



I'm going to sleep now and hopefully when I wake up all of this is going to be just a nightmare.
Or else I don't think I ever want to wake up.







...






Can't sleep.
Thank God it's Friday.

I know it's not your fault.
I really shouldn't be blaming you.

But now that you're gone,
Again,
What am I suppose to do.

Why do you keep shoving me into dead ends,
And leave me there all alone?

It's only been 52 minutes but I really really can't take it anymore.
I want to hear your voice,
I need to see you again.

I almost called 14 times,
I almost smsed 26 times,
But I guess I can't cause everytime I end up in tears again.


Omg I'm such an emotional wreck I think I'm scaring myself.
I just fell down again cause I couldn't see where I was walking.
Had one of those fuzzy moments when you stand up too fast.

I think I sprained my ankle.
Hurts like fuck.
-.-




I wanna be strong but I don't see how I can.

I just want to know why.
Why me,
Again.

Will it never change?

Since forever,
It's always been me.
Always.

I guess it won't never change.

But I'll wait.
xoxo 7:44 PM